Thanks to the wealth of encouragement especially those on this facebook thread (i've pdfed and printed it out and put it on my wall of writing encouragement next to NAC's email on the OK on my grant), I've somehow managed to finish my 1st draft.
Or it could be the fourth.
I put 3 sequences of little stories together (they ranged from about 10,000 to 30,000 words) and i dumped the first two "raws" (read third time lucky) and didn't have time to redo the 3rd sequence... so... I had to use it and then yeah. That's why maybe this is the 4th draft! (sounds better la.)
Surely now i have to go through with drafts 5,6,7,8 up to 30. but damn! I'm glad!
Alright, maybe it's just celebrating this small tiny accomplishment - i mean it's just a draft la.
But i'm high because i was racing for time and didn't think that i was going to finish it before my No Pay Leave (3 months) end. Now my last day of leave is tomorrow and going back to work on Friday, so I'm feeling damn lucky to have finished it in time!
Now I have 1 day to catch up on my sleep, eat, (i still shit regularly, no worries about that) and well, all the other things that i oughta be doing but haven't been doing. *blush*
Last week I was lying in bed - caffeine intoxication (coffee was not enjoyable for me anymore and i also had gastric pains last month), and my muscles lamed out (the lie in bed and cannot move type) - and thinking why the hell i have to torture myself like that - if i just work and watch tv everyday, i'd be richer and more relaxed and not so uptight and pleasant and likeable and go drinking with friends and worry about the ribbons in my hair. I was happier when i was like that in year 1 before all the people imagine..!
So i conclude (again) - that i'm irrational and unreasonable.
Therefore, I need these little irrational and unreasonable yays along the way.
Thanks again for your encouragement k! Really couldn't have done it without you.
